they say its hard to stay mad when theres so much beauty in the world,
what happends if all u see is the darkside in things, in everything.
what happends if you go to hell everytime you close your eyes to sleep.
is this what defines insanity?
seeing things differently compared to 'normal things'.
insanity is defined as : relatively permanent disorder of the mind.
is there a way to fix this? to restore order to the mind?
how can anything help influence what the mind thinks. drug? alcohol? those seem to help, but only temporarily, your lost, dazed, confused, but in the end of it all, when u wake up sober, you return to the hell you thought you escaped, back to the reality of seeing nothing but darkness....
its been so long since ive been normal, i dont know who i am, all i can do is behave normal; laugh, crack jokes, pretend that nothings wrong when all thats ever in my head is how much i wish i could just fade away. help me? save me? if theres anything to save anymore....its so difficult to tell how much of your soul is left when your mind is in chaos...
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